The Great Unknown

I leave for Romania in 16 days. It’s coming up so quickly and the closer it gets, the more of an adventure it seems to become. I’ve been anxiously awaiting being there and actually doing this trip that’s been ‘in the making’ for six months now (longer, if you consider that it’s taken my entire life to get me to the point of saying ‘yes, I’ll go’). Now that it’s closer, I’m jittery and excited and nervous and ready and unprepared, all at once.

I’m fully funded. I have my plane tickets. I have a pack list, which I’m working on checking off. I feel ready most of the time, but have the healthy? anxiety that comes with not having flown in over a year; with never having gone to a new place or navigating an airport on my own; with not knowing my team personally; and with feeling like something big is around the corner and I don’t know the details. Still, despite the unknowns, I’m trusting- because I know I’m supposed to be going.

IF YOU NEVER LEAVE HOME,
NEVER LET GO,
YOU’LL NEVER MAKE IT TO
THE GREAT UNKNOWN
’TIL YOU KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN,
MY LOVE.

I’m staring in the face of a great unknown.  It’s making me restless and nervous and excited. I’m nearing the time of it becoming known… of leaving home, of saying goodbye, however temporarily, to what I know and love, and of the time God opens the door and I grasp tightly onto the hand of my Lord and see the transformation of the great unknown to the great known.

And I’m ready to keep my eyes open.

SO SHOW ME YOUR FIRE,
SHOW ME YOUR HEART;
YOU KNOW
I’LL NEVER LET YOU FALL APART,
IF YOU 
KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN,
MY LOVE.